I am constantly fighting the extremely strong desire to hibernate/hide and isolate. At the same time I also have the desire to be LOUD, speak truth to ALL the things.  It's really difficult because when I hide I get criticized for playing small and then when I get loud I get criticized for being self righteous.  I have spent the last year really spending most of the time completely by myself. To see what I like, what I want, who I really am. This process has been difficult be